Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Stuck in a dream

I have another issue with dreams. Do you ever have dreams where you are trying to get somewhere, or accomplish a certain thing, and you can't do it? I regularly have dreams where I am trying to perform a simple task, pack for a trip, eat a meal, find someone I'm looking for, and I get stuck and no matter how hard I try, I can't accomplish the task. It becomes increasingly frustrating to the point that I wake up, and am relieved that I no longer have to complete the task. In the most recent version of this dream, I was trying to drive to school. No matter which way I turned, I could not get out of a specific neighborhood. There was construction on one street, heavy traffic on another, a dead end... it was unbelievable. In another, I am trying to round up my family so that we can leave a house. I couldn't get everybody to be in the same place at once. In another, I am trying to get from a restaurant, across the street to a hotel. I can't manage it.

Why do dreams have to be frustrating? They are my dreams! Why can't I do what I want to do? I need more control over what is happening. I am busy enough during the day, I do not need my sleep interrupted by frustrating dreams. On some occasions, when I wake up from a dream, I can mentally alter the path of the dream to accomplish what I want. Why do I have to wake up for this? Usually, when this happens, the dream takes a twist and the story changes. Is that because I have interfered with the plotline "Mess with Eric"?

I am not talking here about nightmares or scary dreams. I don't mind scary dreams, because I look forward to the tremendous relief that comes when I wake up from those. It is the frustrating ones that drive me crazy.